CRAZY PASSION
EPISODE 6
” I don’t know what to do Benjamimn, I can’t tell anyone about you, my family and friends would probably crucify me for what l have done. I have practically refused any visits to my home because I can’t risk people seeing you here” I spoke almost to myself as he kept staring at me.
” But I feel in here” l held his hand to my heart. ” What I feel here, gives me hope Benjamin and I know one day I will prove to the world that love is beyond any reason or boundaries” I sniffed in and wiped the tears from my cheek .
He smiled again, but this time, it was his usual silly smiles.
” Come here now” I pulled his hand and walked him to the living room. I sat closer to him taking in the K350 Rasai perfume I got for him, I loved his scent.
I smiled when he leaned his head on me even when he didn’t do it right. I moved back a bit and made him place his head on my laps.
“What would I do without your smart mouth?Drawing me in, and you kicking me out.
You’ve got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down
What’s going on in that beautiful mind. I’m on your magical mystery ride
And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright. My head’s under water. But I’m breathing fine. You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind
‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh!”
Came the soft sounds of John Lengend’s ‘All of Me’ song from the home theatre as I rubbed his soft face gently closing my eyes. It felt like home being so close to him.
He kept his eyes at the screen of the TV which had no sound as I turned it off so that the only sound in the room was from the song playing.
I let the song play on repeat for hours and I slowly dozed off. By the time I woke up, it was close to 20 pm. Surprised Benjamin was still laying on my laps as he played with his fingers.
” You hungry mnmmm ?” I asked him. He nodded his head,
” Nshima” he opened his mouth and I sat up lifting him to sit on his own.
” I know, I dozed off and am sorry supper is late.” I sighed, standing on my bare feet as I had pushed my shoes off.
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” What! No you cant!” I shouted, am sure if he was seeing my face he would read my displeasure.
” You can’t come here dear brother because am not going to be around this whole week. We have a workshop in Livingstone and I left this morning” I went on explaining to my elder brother who called to let me know he would be visiting me for some days.
” Just lodge at Aunty’s place in Matero brother, am not going to be home”
I heard him sigh obviously disappointed. He just called to ask if he can lodge at my place as he would be working from Lusaka. I couldn’t allow it even when I knew he never liked going to spend days at our aunty’s where he mostly grew up from.
Him unlike me had one home to live in. After our parents died leaving the three of us with my elder brother and young sister who unfortunately died in a road accident the year I was completing my studies at CBU.
I never really had one place to stay. I always moved from one home to another. Thankfully our parents left enough money for our tertially education and so all we needed was a home to live in and our relatives took us in. My sister and me went to stay with our uncle in Kapiri. The more reason I visited my aunty in Kabwe more often.
My brother went to stay with the young sister to mom in Matero and he did his studies at The University of Zambia, where he studied Economics.
My kid sister was doing her grade 12 the year she died. She was travelling from Kapiri to go visit our aunty in Matero when she met her demise.
Not like I am complaining, but our family had not always been that close. It was mostly one man for himself and people never really paid visits to one another except during funerals and other family gatherings.
I had hopped I would get someone to stay with after I started working but it was difficult to have anyone stay with me. Most of my cousins and nieces preferred to stay closer to their parents and I finally decided to give up trying to have people live with me.
Only my brother paid me visits most of the times, but this time around I was not ready to host him. Knowing how controlling he was I wasn’t ready for him to come over especially that the room he usually slept in was now for my Benjamin. What with the fact that I was living with a mad stranger, there was no way I would allow him to see him and end up taking away the source of my joy over a month.
” Am sorry Brother. I wish I knew you were coming I could have left the keys for you” I sighed making a sad tone.
” lt’s okey sis, take care of yourself. I bet I will just lodge at some hotel then” he concluded before cutting the line.
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Staying with Benjamin for over 4 weeks was actually getting better. At some point the drugs had finished and now that I knew the names of the drugs I needed not go and steal from Chinama like before. I just went to some pronounced Chemist and bought them even when it cost me half a thousand. My Benjamin surprisingly gained some weight and I couldn’t help admire him.
“Sleeping?” I murmered to myself as l stood in his bedroom. He had not moved out of his room that day and I got worried.
It was a weekend and he usually came out on his own. I drew the bed cover and slid in the blankets besides him.
I felt him shift slightly his warm body touching mine. I saw him open his eyes and glance at me.
” Hey!” I smiled hoping he would answer like he did sometimes. But he was quite.
I shifted sharply when I felt something hard rub my thigh. I had wore a skirt and a vest.
” Oh Benjamin! ” I laughed realising he didn’t have any clothes on which I had noticed was his way of sleeping.
He turned and looked at me his lips smiling slightly. ” What?” I asked looking at his deep white eyes. ” Don’t tell me you can also be h*rny?” I laughed not taking away my eyes from his.
I pushed my hand inside his thighs and I saw him wince slightly making me giggle as I felt him stand harder.
I felt the urge to help myself with him but then I realise I couldn’t do that to him especially that he wouldn’t probably know about that later on.
Well, my plan didn’t work as he surprised me, I withdrew my hand but now he was the one now rubbing his hand on me.
” Oh Jezz!” I moaned surprised.
” We have to stop Benjamin” I held his hand but it seemed I had provoked him enough. He pushed me back and leaped on top of me.
” Stop!” I shouted trying to push him away, but he pinned me leaving me so powerless my inside felt sore but good.
” Oh my God, Benjamin” I sighed my eyes shut as he lay motionless on top of me I could feel his heart racing. With my hands I pushed him down and he fall down fast asleep in an instant.
” Jen, now this is madness to its core” I whispered as I pulled myself out on the bed pulling down my small skirt.
I sat in the tab filled with water as I relived the moment. He surely had what I had termed a “perfect tool ” and if only he was normal, that would make him earn points in love making.
I felt guilty in the end. Like I was taking advantage of his condition. I recalled when I was talking to some friend who told me when I asked if mad people had feelings.
” Yes they have”
” Haven’t you heard of stories where mad people give birth to some babies. Meaning they too get horny and can have sex too. ”
” Well that’s hilarious” I sighed shaking my head. I had not thought Benjaimn would feel like doing it with me. I honestly never had that planned. All I knew was I loved him or maybe was so concerned about him, but it wasn’t my intention to use him for my personal gain.
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