ABUSED
Episode 24
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My life is really taking a new shape, my business is moving well, Doctor Maxwell has been a great company. Our friendship is blossoming everyday, one thing I appreciate like about him is that he is not judgemental.
I recall the day he came to visit me at my house, Ella invited him over though. I brought out a cigarette, I don’t intend to pretend in order to please him. He seemed surprised that I smoke, he looked at me with a smile and said to me
” You are too beautiful to be an exhaust pipe!”
I was taken aback by those words that I dropped the cigar immediately.
The way he talks to me, makes me feel worthy and deserving. We have gone out serval times; the beach, beautiful sites, fanciful restaurants, cinemas and exciting places.
I have been going to church more often than I thought, I am gradually fitting in. I don’t feel unwanted or unfit like I used to formerly.
Maxwell is such a peaceful and lovely person to be around. I just can’t help thinking about him, he is yet to ask me out – which I am grateful for. I’m scared things would change once we start dating and he knows everything about me😩.
Today is mid week, I plan on going. So, I made sure to attend to everything on my itinerary on time. I don’t want to go to church late. How I wish Ella would stop her trade and manage our business with me. She is trying to establish her siblings before quitting, two of them are in Canada now yet Ella feels she needs to send the others over before she calls it off. I have tried to convince her to stop that we both can achieve that through our business but she is bent on having it her way.
She has truly sacrifice her life for her siblings and she doesn’t have the intention of going into a relationship.
Mid week program starts by six, checking my time it’s Five already. I arranged the clothes and ordered my manager to package them. Bisi gives me weekly report about the boutique, so I need not worry about that.
I changed my clothes in my office and drove to the church. I arrived six on the dot. My Bible! Maxwell gifted me – though I am still finding it difficult to read everyday but I do sometimes.
The program was going on well, the praise and worship session so powerful that I couldn’t control my tears😥. The sermon today centered on Eternal life. Maxwell’s father was the one preaching, I felt uncomfortable when he talked about our deeds being the yardstick to determine our eternal abode.
It was like a spear being thrust into my heart, I couldn’t help but think about my life. I thought about what I have been through then I began to question God why I have to go through the rough path😭.
When it was time for altar call, I felt the nudge to go forward but I resisted. The program came to an end eventually without me taking the call.
I waited outside the church premise for Max, I was talking to some church members as they rallied around me especially ladies. I saw the way he spoke to them gently with a smile on his face.
I picked up my phone to get myself busy, engrossed with what I was doing, I didn’t know when he got closer to me and tap me on my shoulder
” Hey! Sorry for keeping you this long”
” It’s fine” I replied
” The day after tomorrow is my birthday’
” Wow! ”
” Yes. I’m glad I did be celebrating with you around Ruth”
” Where are we celebrating it?’
” Your place’
” Your are not serious”
He laughed revealing his finely arranged white dentition
” Ok. Don’t worry it’s a surprise. I will take you to the venue.”
” Ok.”
” How was the program”
” Hmmm. Impactful”
” Ruth, when will you let Him have your heart?”
I couldn’t find words to reply his, I looked at the floor as though the answers were there
” He is not interested in mine. I’m too dirty for him”
” He can clean you up, only if you allow Him”
I wasn’t ready for another sermon, I ironically started feeling hot under this cold weather.
” Maxwell I feel tired, I need to go now😩”
” Ok. Just remember He loves you”
I nodded with a smile as I entered my car, he closed the door and waved at me smiling.
Driving home I felt unrest by the words I have received today. Did he just say Jesus loves me? How can He claim to love me and still watch me go through this pain all through my life?
I got home feeling unhappy with a heavy heart, Ella wasn’t at home. I lost my appetite as my thoughts kept wandering like a lost soul.
I took my bath and changed into my night wear. I got a message from Maxwell, telling me about the love of Christ once again.
I was restless all through the night, I kept rolling on my bed trying to sleep. I finally slept by 2am.
I woke up with a p******g headache, I felt like a beaten wrestler. It’s been long I felt this way. Ella is sure having a swell time.
I took some pills, bathe and fix myself breakfast. I don’t feel like going out to anywhere today. I still feel unsettled as I lay down to rest on the sofa.
I picked my phone and called Ella but it wasn’t reachable. The house feels empty without her, everywhere is unusually cold that one could hear the sound of a pin if it drops off.
I surfed the internet, reading news, gossips and the latest trending topics. I got bored within an hour. I still felt this sadness within me, like burden weighing me down.
I decided to take a drink when my phone rang, it’s a number.
” Hello”
” Yes.’
” am I unto Miss Ruth”
” Yes’
The next info I got almost paralyzed me😩..
TO BE CONTINUED..
