SEMI FINAL
I WASN’T PATIENT ENOUGH 😪
“Sandra, I never knew my mum was the one behind my predicament. I never knew she was the one.” My husband said.
“What concerns me with that? Your mum wasn’t in support of you getting married to me. She was a thorn in my flesh. So, what else do you want to tell me about your mother or whatever? Please, I have limited time to spend with you.” I said as I adjusted myself on my seat.
“Sandra, my eyes have been opened. I’ve been hypnotized since all these days. Please, be patient with me to hear me out.” He said.
I decided to hear him out because initially, I wasn’t ready to hear anything from him.
He made me to understand that his mother belonged to a demonic kingdom. She happened to be their leader. Along the line, in their kingdom, each member was to donate human blood, heart, womb etc.
She decided to donate her own daughter’s womb in their meeting. In fact, I once knew my husband’s sister to be a barren woman. She married for years without a child, yet her husband wasn’t on her neck until God remembered her. Her predicament drew her close to God. She was a lover of God despite all her reproaches. God finally visited her with a bouncing baby boy and a girl (twins).
I couldn’t hold my tears when he made it known to me that his mother donated my own womb in their meeting.
Well, I’m actually to me blamed. I wasn’t fully rooted in Christ and that was why something like that could happen.
“I am confused. After taking my womb why was she that callous to me? How on earth could she bring another woman into my house? Why did I have to pass through hell in her hands and even in your hands? I passed through hell, terrible hell! Yet, you still have the gut to come here. I’m done with this discussion.” I said as I moved to a corner to cry my eyes out.
I never knew he was still around.
Everything that has happened in that house came back to my memory. It was as if I was watching a tragedic movie. I couldn’t erase some bad memories. I just couldn’t help it. I broke down in tears.
“Sandra, mum needs your forgiveness. She is on her sick bed. She asked me to reach you. She would be happy to see your face.” He said.
“Over my dead body will I move an inch with you to any where.” I said.
I was almost becoming insane. I picked my bag up from the table and commanded him to leave my office.
He did. I went to my apartment immediately. I never knew he was following me. How he got to know where I was leaving deeply pained me.
I didn’t want him to know anything about me again.
I entered my apartment, managed to sit on the sofa. I broke down in tears afresh.
I was still deeply in tears when he knocked at my door. When I got to know that he was the one, I yelled at him.
All attempts to chase him out of my apartment became futile.
I went back to my sofa to continue my tears. He sat down on the floor, weeping.
We were both helpless. No one to comfort us. He needed someone to comfort him, I also needed a comforter.
After few minutes without saying a word to each other, he stood up and looked into my eyes.
“Sandra, I was deeply in love with you when we started the journey of life together. Now that my eyes are opened, I still love you. I’m still deeply in love with you. I’m deeply sorry for all I put you through. I promised never to lay my hands on you while we were courting, but, I broke that promise. I treated you like a trash. I regret all my actions. I don’t know if you will ever forgive me. I keep condemning myself for all I made you pass through. I wish I had waited patiently. I wish I had not listened to my mum. I wish I was the best husband to you. Now, no true love in my life. Well, I’m sorry once again. I still love you. Bye bye.” He said.
As he was about to take his leave, I called him back.
I held him tight as if my life depended on his hug for survival. I allowed my tears to flow freely. He was also in tears.
“Why did you send me away. Why did you treat me like that. Just because of another woman you forgot the woman you claimed you love. You allowed me to pass through hell. You broke my fragile heart. Now, you’re back, asking for forgiveness.” I said as I broke down in tears that refused to stop.
He wiped those tears and hugged me very tight. I felt loved. I almost forgave him, but I was still scared of things not known to me. I wanted more than that hug. I really missed him. I really needed an intimate touch.
“Please, forgive me babe.” He finally said.
“I have forgiven you. I also need you to forgive me for sleeping with a friend of mine to get you a child. I am so sorry for everything that ever happened. Desperation actually led me there. Thank God, He has forgiven me. I need you to also forgive me.” I said.
“I have forgiven you as well.” He said. We hugged ourselves.
“Please, be going home. Don’t keep your wife waiting. She will be waiting to see your face.” I said as I disengaged from the hug.
“Which wife?” He said.
“Your wife. The other woman.” I said.
“Sandra, she has gone.” He said.
“Why? Did you send her away just like you did to me? I hope your mother didn’t beat you for sending.” I said sarcastically.
“It’s a long story. I later got to know that I wasn’t the real father of the child.
One day, The child was involved in an accident which also claimed the lives of 5 pupils in her school. On getting to the hospital, the proprietor placed a call across to me to asking me to come down to the hospital immediately.
At the spur of the moment, I left everything I was doing and went straight to the hospital. I never knew that her mother was there.
I was made to understand that she needed blood. They thought I could donate my blood for her. They were about to collect my blood when someone suggested I was tested to know if my blood would be compatible with her own.
To their greatest surprise, it wasn’t compatible. They had to carry a DNA test to confirm if I was the father of the child.
Well, it was confirmed that I wasn’t the father of the child. In fact, I got to know that I had no possibility of fathering a child.
It wasn’t known to me that the problem of fertility could also be from my end. I thought it was only women that have fertility problem.
To cut the long story short, we lost her.
I was very angry because I never knew I had been taking care of a child who belonged to another man. I really took good care of that girl when she was alive. I made life very easy for her. I didn’t know that I was actually taking care of another person’s property.
When she came back home that night, she was scared of me because she knew I was aware that I wasn’t the father of the child. I went straight to the kitchen to get a knife. I was determined to stab her that night if she failed to tell me who the real father is.
She confessed that my brother was the one responsible for the baby. Immediately, I felt like punching her. In fact, I gave her a very hot slap for sleeping with my own brother.
My own brother!!!! I couldn’t believe my eyes. Immediately, I placed a call across to him. I told him everything, but he didn’t see anything wrong in what he did. He told me the lady wasn’t my wife. He insulted me. It was as if I should stab him, but he wasn’t beside me.
I realized that she was still sitting down. I went to where she was and descended on her. I almost killed her. That same night, I asked her to pack her things out of my house. She begged me to pardon her. She even pleaded if I could allow her to wait till the following day, but I wasn’t ready to listen to her. All her pleas fell on deaf ears.
I guessed as well that my brother was right. God blessed me with a wife, but desperation to have a child made me get a second woman who wasn’t my legal wife. He was one of those that spoke sense to my brain that I should re-unite with you.
I became sorrowful when I remembered your own case. If I knew the problem was from my end, I wouldn’t have married that lady. She was only after my wealth.
Few weeks after that incidence, mum became terribly sick.
Could you believe that my mother was the one who orchestrated these. Remember, I told you she affected my reproductive system and also took away your womb. Despite that, she still arranged for another lady to have a child for me from another man in order for my eyes not to be opened to her atrocities.” He said.
I couldn’t control my tears when I remembered some things. Before my old friend impregnated me, I remembered what God actually told me some months before that incidence.
I thought God was actually getting to late to attend to my matter and that was why I decided to help myself.
To be sincere with you, something like what your mother did to me was revealed to me in my dream.
I saw a woman in my dream removing something out of my body. I was also smiling. In fact, I couldn’t thank her enough. I thought she was trying to remove things that weren’t supposed to be in my body, out.
I never knew she was removing something vital in my life. When I woke up, I had the urge to pray about it, but I took the dream as a myth.
At another time, I dreamt. In that dream, I got to know that my answers to my prayers were very near. In fact, just a step more to my answers. I was warned to be patient enough to walk through that step. I was warned never to be weary of waiting because my answer was very near.
Along the line, I didn’t know what actually came upon me. I angrily went away because it was taking much time for my answer to come. I was weary. Just after I left, the answer came immediately, but I was no where to be found. Eventually, the answer was given to another person.
When I woke up again this time, I took this dream with a hand of levity. I thought it was a myth.
Maybe, if I had pressed further in the place of prayers, my prayers would have been answered. Maybe if I didn’t solicit help from my friend, I would have become a mother.
“Dear, I have another confession to make. Pastor Badelolu is a…” I said.
To be continued.
