#I_CHEATED_ON_MY_WIFE.
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Episode 14
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Aram asked me the last question as if he doesnāt trust me again as his friend.
I assured him that there was nothing and I was going to block Abena right away. i took my phone and blocked Abenaās number immediately right in front of Aram.
I didnāt hear anything from her after then.
Is been two whole months and I have missed my wife. Bisi was still acting cold towards me but she has started serving my food again on the dining table. She sometimes helps with my laundry and also ironing. But hardly speaks to me even when I speak to her she finds it difficult to reply.
I thank her for every of her kindness even when she doesnāt reply back.
I moved back to our bedroom and was hoping she wonāt pick offence. I have kept my distance for over two months now but I desire my wife and want things to be back to normal.
As I move back to our master bedroom she walked out to sleep in the visitorās room instead.
I try to plead again and beg her to return to the room but Bisi can be very difficult and did not reply me.
We have lived like two strangers far long enough and I canāt bear it anymore.
The following night I try to persuade and plead again.
āHoneyā¦I know my sins are heavy and I donāt deserve your love or forgiveness but please for the sake of our children, I beg of you in the name of God that we both serve to try and forgive. Is getting to three months that we live like enemies. I canāt bear it anymore honey! Give me another chance, I will never betray you ever again. You believe in God who is ever loving and forgiving, why canāt you forgive me Bisi. Please honeyā¦.i promise to make it right if you will let me.
She turned to me angrily and said.
āDon Sean, if I was the one at faultā¦.if I slept with another man even right under our roof Iām very sure you will never look my side again. I may be in back at my parentās house right now and everyone who cares to listen will know what I did. Is either you sent me out of the house or you leave the house for me. Don Sean, people who live in glass house do not throw stones. What you canāt tolerate donāt do it to another. Please leave God and religion out of this. If you have thought of God before all your dirty act Iām sure we wonāt be having this conversation. All I asked is to be left alone. I donāt know how to love or trust you anymore. Iām trying so hard but finding it difficult. Forgiveness doesnāt come cheap. I donāt care how many months or years it takes me to heal I just want you to let me be in peace that is all I ask. There is nothing that you do or buy that will undo what you have done. Even if the wounds heals up, the scar will serve as a reminder. Maybe it would have been better to get a divorce and move away fromā¦
hushed her from saying her last statement.
My eyes was getting soiled up. Gaining a forgiveness from Bisi was proving far difficult. Why will she mention divorce? I detest such words. God forbids that my wife should separate from me.
Before she will complete her last sentence, I rushed to her and pulled her into my arm. She was struggling, slapping and hitting me to let her go.
I held onto her. I told her she was my life and Iām a walking corpse without her. If she refused to forgive me then I will be better dead than to be alive.
I was pleading and did not allow her slaps or struggle to get to me.
I just wanted my wife again. I want my home back. My daughter has asked me the other day why her Mommy was not talking to me and why I was not friends again with the mother. I couldnāt even answer the question.
I end up telling her that I hurt their Mum and wish she will forgive me someday. My little daughter promise to help me beg her on my behalf. I know she must have done that but Bisiās heart is so harden.
Aram and his wife has pleaded and I have done everything within my power to make my wife to let go of my sins and yet nothing.
I canāt keep calm and watch her gets feed up one day and finally walk out of the marriage. That will shatter my home. I want my wife back.
Bisi kept hitting and later began to sob in my arm. She was cursing and calling me names for hurting her and all I did was to plead. I did not stop.
I was in tears too as I held her.
She caused and abused me while still sobbing.
After sometimes she became quiet and I let her go.
I try to wipe off the tears running down her face but she slapped off my hand and went into the bathroom to cry more.
I sat on the bed holding my head and praying that Bisi finds it in her heart to forgive. Is more than two months already that we are living as strangers.
I canāt take it anymore.
When she came out, I was still there. I stood not knowing what to say or do again. If she doesnāt want me in the room I will quietly return to the visitorās room but I want to be with my wife, hold her all through the night. I want to assure and show her that I meant to keep my vows this time.
She got ready for bed and I was still standing and hoping this night will be different.
She went straight to bed and put off the light. I thought of moving to the bed but things are not as they used to be. Iām scared of offending her.
I donāt want to sleep alone in the visitorās room again.
I gradually walk to our matrimonial bed, sat down first just to see her reaction.
Bisi did not say anything or make a move to leave.
I gently climbed up the bed and kept my distance without a word or touch.
