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Chapter Six
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I went back home not wanting to remember what the lady said earlier but it keeps coming into my head.
‘Oh! come on Chioma, stop thinking that shit okay. you’re not pregnant, just keep calm, don’t panic, just relaxed…..”
“Who and who is pregnant Chioma?”. My grandma asked standing behind me as I stood up straight at her telling her I was just imagining things.
“better don’t imagine such now, because I don’t want your parents to be ashamed of me that I didn’t train you well.
“I know grandma, so don’t worry I’m just imagining things… things!.”. I said walking out of her as I made a u-turn at her to tell her about Aunty Susan husband. But as I see her continuos procastination. I just keep quiet and went to my room.
“I didn’t say you shouldn’t be pregnant ooo you will surely be pregnant but It should after your wedding”.
I heard her shouting from the sitting room. Telling my grandma about Aunty Susan husband is not an issue but how it would break her heart, and I don’t want anything to happen to her again. So, I will just let it be, at least I’m not pregnant. I lay flat on my bed do tired and hungry.
“What is all this now, I just finished eating some hour ago. Ha! na wa oo I don’t even understand myself again.
I Hit my stomach repeatedly until I realized the pains that followed when I started rolling over holding my troubling stomach as I pressed it in. Still, the pains is not subsiding as get up from the bed and went over to my grandma room holding my stomach.
“What happened to you Chioma?. she asked looking scared.
I really don’t want this type of situation for her not even when she just got discharged.
“Grandma don’t worry is just a little pain under my navel”. I said turning back to go back to my room while I smiled pretending to be fine.
“what do you mean don’t worry, you are holding your stomach looking so pain and you’re telling me I should not worry”. She said walking towards me as I quickly close her door walking faster to my room.
I blamed myself for going to her room at first when I possibly know she’s going to react. I entered my room and locked my door and went to lay on the bed covering myself with my duvet. My grandma came over to the door and started knocking telling me to open the door that she needs to see what is going on with me. I answered her telling her she should go back to her room as I’m now okay. After some minutes she said she’s going back to her room since I have refused to open the door for her.
“goodnight grandma”. I said as she left after answering me
“this is better. I think I will need to go for test at the hospital tomorrow because I don’t seems to understand this feelings at all. I took my phone and scroll over to Fred number.
I really wish to speak to someone right now, I messaged Fred on WhatsApp severally as he is online. But, he didn’t reply my messages, instead he kept reading it. And I can’t even call him either.
“But, could it be that he is not really opening up to me like that. No, I don’t want to guess wrong because at least we have talked very well and know much about each other. So, definitely he might surely be busy and doesn’t want disturbance. But, who doesn’t have time at night to do things when it’s even the saver and good time to do what you couldn’t do since morning.
I tossed around my bed as my head began to bang as if an harmer is being used on it. I cried in pains as the pains wouldn’t subside, I really can’t wait to see the doctor and explain to him. I carry my Bible placed under my pillow as I recite psalm 91 twice and slept off.
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Coming back from the hospital after my test results as been done in which turns out to be positive. I almost collapse at the hospital as it feels like a nightmare to me like, how on Earth will I be pregnant? it’s not as if Aunty Susan husband realeased inside me.
“What do I even know! how will I know if he realeased inside me or not, with the way he do have s*x with me “. I said almost falling into a gutter beside the road.
“Are your eyes blind? or you left it at home!”. A man standing to cross shouted at me as I retraced my step and go the right way.
“Something fit dey do her”. I heard a bread seller saying as I burst into tears on the road going.
The woman noticed and told her little son to call me back.
“Aunty what is wrong with you? come and sit and take water first. This life really reach to think, because e no easy for everywhere “. She said while I sat on her long bench covering my eyes with the scarf I tied.
“Ehya! Pele… Pele!”. A man eating bread and beans said while looking at me.
I collected the pure water and poured on my head instead of drinking. They kept saying sorry…. sorry!.
“Just relaxed a little okay, before continuing your journey”. The woman said.
I thanked them and sat for a while to just set my brain well before going. I stood and thanked her smiling at her telling her I’m now okay as I left her place.
“two months pregnant? ha! I’m finished! where will I start from? how do I begin my talk? who will want to believe me at this moment? I dare not even tell my grandma anything. Who will I tell her is responsible for the pregnancy. How will she feels if I tell her is Aunty Susan husband. What if he denies it? ha! God, Aunty Susan will never believe such if I should tell her.
I stood at the front of my house and adjust myself in other not to be noticed by my grandma.
“Or should I just go and abort it? I suddenly remembered what the madam said about DON’T DO IT. Could it be that this is what the man is saying? infact I don’t even know this moment, Or maybe I should call Aunty Susan husband and tell him first. Will he even believe me now that I don’t live with them again? he can’t deny he is not the father, ha! God but, I don’t want to have to baby for now, not even when I’m not sure if the father will accept it or not.
“Who will help me out like this because I’m really in messed.
“Why are you standing there?”. My grandma called out.
TBC.
Trouble don sheley for you